It seems that my body wanted to teach me a lesson lately; something that I’d never forget
Heba Hendawi
It seems that my body wanted to teach me a lesson lately; something that I’d never forget. Maybe it felt sorry for me or may be it went too far but by all means, I’m sure it was out of good intentions. We are inseparable; what hurts me hurts my body. Thus, it wanted to force me to unburden my loads and have a forced sick leave whether I like it or not. A small cartilage in my knee received an order to tear and consequently, the whole area got swollen. Both, executed unquestionably. Medicine goes that a cartilage tear must be due to a fall, slip or any uncalculated movement of the knee. I did nothing wrong! Modern medicine says that our body is smart enough to physically act accordingly with our emotions. Any trapped emotions are reflected in our organs. Previously, before my injury, I found difficulty in believing this theory. However, now I ponder over it silently and deeply.
My knee cartilage issued an order of mandatory rest and my orthopedic approved. They both threatened me of surgical intervention if I don’t take it seriously. I surrendered. Here I am confining myself to rest and using crutches to avoid any weight bearing to help the poor cartilage heal. I recall my daily chores and all the boxes I had to check in my to-do list and a sense of surprise strikes me. I see all the tiny details I took care of then I feel surprised how I did all this on my own! My past routine is my future’s utmost hope. How strange!
Our human body is a miracle that we have to be grateful for and strengthen our faith
Guilt and lamentation embark on my solitary confinement. I wish I did this or that. Why didn’t I go to this place? If only I visited so and so. I shouldn’t have postponed going here or there. I look around the house. What about my daily chores? What about my children! Could they survive without me? Who will feed them and who will drive them to school? Who will do the shopping? I was never a digital client. I preferred to shop on ground rather than online. Now, it seems that my cartilage wants me to respect all the efforts exerted by the e-commerce people. Online shopping is my only resort now.
My children have no other choice than to cook, do the laundry and tidy the house. No wasted food, scattered stuff or piles of clothes linger anywhere. They watch their steps! Now they realize how much effort is done daily to keep them satisfied. They question my human abilities as all these minute details are never to be accomplished by a single human being!
My cartilage taught me a lesson about gratitude. I thank God every day for his blessings but I discovered that I took many for granted. I delve into the sophisticated human anatomy and is stricken by awe. Our human body is a miracle that we have to be grateful for and strengthen our faith.
My injury revealed a lot to me. Finally, I have time for myself. I apologize for my abandoned books and my missed journaling. I sit silently in my corner evaluating the past and looking forward to the future. Get the best of every situation!
Published under the International Cooperation with Middle East Business
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