Ali Lashari is Assistant Director (Excavation & Exploration) at Directorate of Archaeology & Antiquities Wing, Culture, Tourism, Antiquities & Archives Department Government of Sindh.
Apology, Love, and Prayer
My dear wife…
My beloved daughter…
Today, I stand before you as a man who is broken… yet honest.
I don’t know what mistake I made… or when it happened… or how it happened.
Maybe it was unintentional… maybe I wasn’t even aware…
But something inside me is hurting deeply…
A fear that I may have hurt both of you.
These days, I am living in a strange state…
It feels like I am alive every day… and yet dying inside at the same time.
In every prayer… in every سجدة (prostration)…
I cry before Allah and say:
“O Allah, if I have made any mistake—even one I am unaware of—please forgive me.
If I have hurt me or anyone, forgive me.
And if what I fear is true, then forgive me…
And if it is not true, then let it be false—do not let it become my reality.”
I pray:
“O Allah, guide me to the right path.
Protect me from wrong actions.
Purify my intentions.
Light up my soul…
And give me the strength to become a better human being—
Someone who can help others, and especially his family.”
But today… I am not only asking Allah for forgiveness…
I am asking both of you.
My wife…
My daughter…
If I have made any mistake—whether knowingly or unknowingly—
I ask you from the depth of my heart:
Please forgive me…
Please forgive me…
Please forgive me…
I am truly sorry.
I love you both more than words can ever express.
Right now, my life feels like a living hell…
And I want to come out of it.
And the only way forward is through Allah’s mercy… and your forgiveness.
I pray:
“O Allah, give me the strength to do so much for my wife and children
That they never feel pain or sorrow.
Make me someone who becomes their support, their happiness, their pride.”
I promise…
I will keep trying to become a better person…
I will keep getting closer to Allah…
And I will live every moment striving for your happiness.
I have only one request…
Oh, my darling… anointed one…
Please accept my deepest apologies. I feel like I’ve harmed you, and it’s breaking me. I don’t know what I did or if it was wrong.
I seek Allah for forgiveness in my daily prayers, even for the ones I’m unaware of, for any and all mistakes.
You are the two people in my life that I love the most.
Also, I only need one item from you at the moment…
My apologies.
Please forgive me.
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